Category Archives: Reflect

A few thoughts: I started blogging almost 20 years ago. I was 16 in high school. I kept a Xanga account, a livejournal account, multiply, MySpace, Friendster, Tumblr, you name it.

Throughout the years I have shifted and changed my identity because I kept changing who I was to please people around me.Me.mutmuted my voice alot

But also, I grew up. I changed and grew out of old identities and discovered new things about myself that I did like. It’s normal we all evolve.

Even the content of my older older blogs were trying to be something I was not. Right now, after turning 35, I have found peace in my own voice and am at ease expressing myself without the need for validation.

I just hope you like the new energy coming out. And I hope we keep learning new things along the way.

Xo, V

By Benjamin Franklin.
1. “Temperance. Eat not to dullness; drink not to elevation.”

2. “Silence. Speak not but what may benefit others or yourself; avoid trifling conversation.”

3. “Order. Let all your things have their places; let each part of your business have its time.”

4. “Resolution. Resolve to perform what you ought; perform without fail what you resolve.”

5. “Frugality. Make no expense but to do good to others or yourself; i.e., waste nothing.”

6. “Industry. Lose no time; be always employ’d in something useful; cut off all unnecessary actions.”

7. “Sincerity. Use no hurtful deceit; think innocently and justly, and, if you speak, speak accordingly.”

8. “Justice. Wrong none by doing injuries, or omitting the benefits that are your duty.”

9. “Moderation. Avoid extremes; forbear resenting injuries so much as you think they deserve.”

10. “Cleanliness. Tolerate no uncleanliness in body, cloaths, or habitation.”

11. “Tranquility. Be not disturbed at trifles, or at accidents common or unavoidable.”

12. “Chastity. Rarely use venery but for health or offspring, never to dullness, weakness, or the injury of your own or another’s peace or reputation.”

13. “Humility. Imitate Jesus and Socrates.”

Filed under: things I kept in my notes since 2015. 

True Prosperity

Money is 99% energy and 1% physical matter.

It’s true. Think about it. It’s just paper, isn’t it? The paper is only worth something because of the value we give it. This is why people are so busy running around chasing after money. They know on an intrinsic level they’re actually chasing after the 99% Light.
Money is just as much a gift of the Creator as any other form of spiritual fulfillment. Money is a “life” energy – like love, like food, like relationships with other people. It’s infinite.

We block the energy of prosperity with our own personal garbage. And sometimes to receive that energy, we need to get out of our own way and our own thoughts.
Open your vessel to the Light by being honest about where you have blocked yourself from gaining true prosperity.

By: Y. Berg

In my journey I’ve had discussions about several lies we’ve been telling ourselves.

I am not good enough x I am not worth loving x I am not capable x I don’t deserve good things

The self love process is a process of uncovering the lies we tell ourselves so we can live freely. It’s picked up as children with our parents, in school, in media or in society in general. Whenever something good comes up in my life and I resist it, I have to check myself and ask what subconscious lie is being activated. What good things in my life am I pushing away because of the lack of self-love?

Awareness is never ending. We bring the lie to light and we move forward, accepting all that we are meant to have.

Damn, I sound wise.

Hong Kong, I love you and thank you for the profound lessons and experiences you have brought into my life. I have found a greater connection to my life through this city. It has opened me up to a new cast of characters, luxuries I never imagined existed, showed me strength I never knew I had, and provided a central and convenient base for me as I hopped around Asia. I can’t thank Hong Kong enough for giving me the opportunity and chance to grow 10 million times faster than I did in any other country.

But as I also continue my path, I feel called to be in Manila more. I have a few workshops and talks lined up for 2017 that I am curating based on my own healing journey. I feel my heart telling me it’s something I need to do. If not now, when?

With that said, to move forward we are sometimes required to move back.

Consider this the public announcement.

With love and gratitude.

Not leaving forever.

I’ll be back.

Connect the dots.

The past 5 months I have taken on a new journey of healing. Coming from an industry of making things look good and moving into an industry of making people feel good.

I have dove into understanding the root causes of emotional pain (depression, anxiety, you name it.) It wasn’t an easy process to undergo because understanding the root of a trauma means diving deep into my own shadows. The ego, of course, wants to be perfect at all costs, so the death of my own self-image was necessary to uncover deeper truths.

But once uncovered, I wonder, who can we share these truths with so safely? Now that I know myself on a deeper level, who are the people out there who can understand me with openness and understanding?

We live in a world where judgment runs rampant. Emotions are ridiculed. We judge based on social media filters, the clothing brand one wears, and even the size of one’s waistline. Everything at first glance is flooded with bias. It angers me when I see people judge other people unfairly. Underneath the facade is a story that requires your compassion. We’re all so tired of wearing the masks that shield us from pain, but actually, the masks that we think shield us actually suffocate us even more. I look back at all the multiple masks I’ve worn and I can’t even relate anymore. I don’t even recognize that girl and am finding life so much more refreshing now that I’ve removed that lie to keep up.

Which brings me back to the concept of sharing your truth. The concept of being vulnerable around your story so that you can breathe some oxygen into your deep cuts. “Know that your wounds can heal others,” was a lesson also being repeated. That by showing others what we’ve gone through, perhaps we give another person that strength to face their own shadows too.

What is life if we cannot help each other through this.

Compassion is necessary at all times my friends.

No one is a mind reader.

Stories need to be told.

In this blog I constantly share what I am learning and going through. In between restructuring work and focusing on self-care, I put on my earphones, blasted my hip-hop playlist and hit the pavement to run by the bay.

I took this photo this morning during my morning jog because it reminded me of the concept of surrender. 

Surrender, not to be confused with weakness, is a type of letting go. I learned how to surrender to some higher power. I surrender to a bigger picture I cannot forsee. 

I’ve learned surrender to the purpose of what I want my life to be about. Lately I feel like it’s stronger than anything I’ve ever felt and day by day I let it guide my actions. 

I’ve learned how to surrender to feelings and not fight the waves of emotions coming to and fro. I’ve learned how to surrender to greatness. How to surrender to pain. Surrender to love.

There are many things are ego will fight against. Events that won’t make sense, feelings it refuses to feel. I can run and repeat this cycle, or I can simply surrender. 

Surrendering I repeat is not weakness but strength to me. It gives me this sense of release because I no longer try to control how things “should be” in my life. Surrender in this sense, is trust. Finally I’m learning that too. 

The morning run was amazing. It’s my new thing. 

Love Fully. Thank it. Then let it go. 
We are here but to experience love. That’s it. Thy self. Thy Neighbor. And that being up there guiding us all.

Loving one another helps you understand yourself better. You see yourself in another person that’s why there is a strong connection. However, the process involves truth. The deepest, scariest scars of your past will come up to the surface for chance to be healed, finally asking for its own dissolution. 

For some, the light on their own darkness will be too much to bear. Besides, the ego loves the story. The pity. The pain. The attention. Without it, the ego cannot exist. It’s their operating system. So, the ego avoids the uncomfortable confrontation. Run, run away, and run fast. 

For others, they face it head on, diving into cut after cut with the release of old belief systems and triggers, knowing that there has to be a better way to live. Knowing this was all an experience to understand love. The soul welcomes it. The healing takes place. Sit, stay, breathe, and keep breathing.

We are all here to shed love, and light, on one another. At the same time, we trigger one another with the pain we need to heal. Whether one decides to flee or face it is always decision for their own soul growth. But know that everything is already set to repeat itself if we don’t face it now. This is an extremely transformational process in this journey. 

Sometimes I feel like life is just one big simulation for us to find (or feel) these answers. God is up there creating situations that test what you know. If you learn the lesson you move on to a new experience. If not, you repeat the experience again in a new situation. The characters wear different robes with different names, but the story is the same. 

Tonight I am learning to let go of old stories. Okay Victoria, breathe, what is the lesson?

Love fully. Thank it. Then let it go.

Just some Saturday night thoughts. 

As I walked home today in Hong Kong, I came across this sight. A homeless man sleeping on a cardboard box underneath the overpass.

I am posting this to remind myself (and perhaps whoever is reading) not to get caught up in the bullshit of life. There’s other more important things in the world that need to be addressed.

When we lose focus we prioritise things that in the end, don’t matter. It misleads us to the unstable and often times, illusory ideas of happiness. Disconnectedness with ourselves, other people, and the real emotions that make us feel alive.

I feel like now I watch the world with a clearer lens, and my inner circle pushes me to create with higher intention. There’s a lot of things going through my mind but I will start with this.